Crossroads

VegasCon is almost here and I 'don't know what to do'. (And now I have that song I'll stand by you stuck in my head and that's like the least fitting song at this moment. Oh, the irony!)

I have two photo ops with Jensen, but I'm seriously considering selling (at least) one of them.

VegasCon will be my 8th con and I always had two POs with him. Guess it's kind of a tradition by now. But something happened 3 months ago and I'm... Well, let's just say that, right now, I'd rather not have my picture taken with him at all. But. If I do get rid of the ticket(s), I'm afraid I'll regret that later. Once I stop being pissed and disappointed. And I'm still hoping that'll happen. (Preferably before JIB.)

So I'm really not sure what to do here. To sell or not to sell? I'll probably leave it until Friday and decide then. *sigh*

I still hope to win the lottery...

Gonna make this short and sweet. No time for long posts. I got that part-time job. We're calling it overtime, though.

Yay!

And also, what the hell did I just do???

*headdesk* *headdesk* *headdesk*



*headdesk* *headdesk*



BTW, you know how a normal person's first thought after getting a second job would be: great, more money for food and bills? Mine was: Yay! I can buy more photo ops for VegasCon!!! *sigh* It's not easy being a conoholic. Or cheap.

Phew. It was just a phase.

It's all right, people. False alarm. Crisis averted.

I'm still not all the way back to my normal levels of conoholism, but I'm getting there. *thumbs up*

I was a bit worried there for a while, but it's all good now. I'm still not crazy about BurCon, but I'm actually looking forward to JIBcon. And VegasCon. And that's probably a good thing since I'm, y'know, going. lol

Identity crisis

I had a pretty bad case of identity crisis last night.

It wasn't even the post-con blues, cause I KNOW how THAT feels. No, I bypassed that completely and went straight to: What the hell am I even doing here? I wondered if the whole thing was worth the 23 hours it took me to get here. And the 23 hours that it'll take me to get back home. And I was seriously considering the answer: No.

I don't know, maybe it's because every con is the same. Same events, same guests. No, make that EXACTLY the same guests. Been there, done that. This was my 6th con after all. I can't say it was boring, but I just couldn't be excited about it either. Friday was the worst. (It got a bit better after that.) I was in my room after karaoke thinking: Wait, that was it?! Talk about being disappointed.

And the funny thing is, I'm going to JIBcon, I have Gold for Dallas (I WILL probably sell it, but I do have it) and I bought Gold for Vegas. That's a lot of cons for somebody who's beginning to see them as chores.

And let me tell you, that is a sucky feeling.

And it's really unfair. I have a lot of some bad habits. But if I had to suddenly lose one of them, did it really have to be my conoholism?

I don't wanna have to change the title of my blog!!! (Cause, yes, THAT's the biggest problem. *rolleyes*)

Dallas??? No!!!

I've been telling myself forever, if there's another con in Dallas, I'm definitely going. Unfortunately, it looks like my definition of 'definitely' might be more something along the lines of 'when hell freezes over'. Cause, man, I really can't afford 3 cons in one year. And I'm not ready to give up JIB just yet. (BTW, why the hell are plane tickets to Dallas, in Sept, so expensive???)

If I really wanted to go, I'd have to forgo buying photo ops. And let's face it, photo ops are the reason I'm going. Well, that and fugly airplane food.
I'm probably kidding. :p
And I couldn't get any Meet&Greet tickets nor JIB's Dolce vita with Jared if they manage to get him again in 2012.
And I'm moving next year, so I'd have to live in a cold, dark apartment (but with wi-fi, I have my priorities) so I wouldn't spend huge amounts of money on utilities.

There's no way I can afford it.



BTW, y'all know I'm going, right? *sigh*

Congrats to Genevieve and Jared!

Yes, Genevieve is pregnant. Jared just tweeted that.

Looks like I was right. Hand on belly = a pregnant woman.
(If you want any more predictions, you'll have to wait until Oct 24, cause I'm psychic only every other Monday. *nods* Sorry. :D lol)

Can't believe this pic got more than 3000 views. http://twitpic.com/6yd8xh

And that @jarpad faved it. :D http://twitter.com/#!/jarpad/favorites

And now, on a completely selfish level *is ashamed*, I just hope D-day will be after LAcon or we just might end up with one (very important) guest less on the guest list. :(

Or before (that would work too), so LAcon could be baby's first con. Awww. :)


I kinda hoped we'd finally see Genevieve on LAcon's guest list. Well, maybe in 2013, yeah?




ETA (Oct 8, 2012): Apparently, that screencap of Gen with her hand on her belly kinda got a life of its own. Which baffles me no end. It never occurred to me when I capped it that something like that could happen. Weird.

It's official...

I'm going to LA next month. :D

I had a really lousy end of the year. My parents had another one of their financial crises which of course meant no LAcon for me. Not that they said anything, but how could I spend my money on myself when they needed it. That, of course, made me really angry (seething's the word) because it's been like this since I can remember. Well, at least since I started working 12 years ago. 85% - 100% of my money always went to them. Which is OK, I don't need much. But when I have to give up probably the only thing I'm looking forward to because they couldn't make things better in over a decade... Yeah, I didn't take it well. So I tried to avoid anything Supernatural-related because it would just remind me of everything and that would make me angry all over again. But, of course, the more I tried to avoid thinking about the con, the more I thought about it. And boy, is being angry all the time exhausting. On the bright side, I did lose 10 lb. Turns out, when you're seething, you're just not that hungry.

In other (good) news... I managed to get a decentish plane ticket. I was worried that the price would be through the roof cause the con is in a month, but it was like half the price of what I paid when I was flying to Vancouver. And I bought that ticket months before VanCon. Go figure. The only problem is that I'll have to wait for 6 hours at the Munich airport. (Hence the ish part.) It was either 6 hrs or hour and a half, and since it's winter and there's always a possibility of snow, ice, fog... I just didn't want to risk it. This is the first time I won't be stopping over in Frankfurt, but that ticket was $300 more, so I figured, I can live with Munich.

I just don't know how I'm supposed to watch 100+ episodes of Supernatural in a month.

Look at me, I'm on TV. Well. Maybe...

I guess every few years I dare myself to step (waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay) out of my comfort zone. I did it 2 years ago when I bought Gold for ChiCon. I won't go into details, but trying to decide whether to buy that ticket or not, it wasn't a pretty sight. (I'm one of those people who wouldn't go to the movies alone, and yet, there I was, thinking about flying to the other side of the world. Alone. First time on a plane, first time outside of Europe, first time in an English speaking country where I know noone.) I bought the ticket eventually and never looked back.
And now I just might do it again. That 'get out of my comfort zone' part, not the 'buy Gold for ChiCon' part. lol I can't really believe I'm even thinking about it. But on the other hand, what doesn't kill me, will some day pay for my psychiatrist's beach house. (Y'know, if/when I start seeing one.)

There's this audition for hosts of TV Bingo show on HRT.

And I'm seriously thinking of sending my CV.

Because hosting a TV show is, of course, a perfect job for somebody who's quiet and suffers from stage fright. (Man, I certainly picked the right year to get off beta blockers.)

Like I said, waaaay out of my comfort zone.

But I AM looking for a part time job. And I HAVE been complaining about the shortage of those. And I DO need money for cons. So, why wouldn't I send my CV? It's not like they're gonna pick me or anything. Right?

I would also have to send my photo. Now, that could be a bit tricky. Only recent photos of me that I have are photo ops. And I'm pretty sure they want just a photo of me. But if I send them one of my photo ops with Jensen and Jared, at least they're bound to notice me. :D And anything that sets me apart from others is a good thing, right? I sure could use any help I can get. Cause I am quite ordinary.

I wonder if I'll actually do it.

Oh. A friend informed me that this is a job one should be ashamed of (because apparently hosting TV Bingo show is down there with scamming ppl out of their money or something *rolleyes*) and that he would defriend me if I send my CV. It might seem like I'm tempting fate with this post, but I'm good for now. He doesn't read my blog anyway. And he won't find out about this unless I get the job. And if I do get it, I won't care because I'll become famous and I'll get thousands of new true friends. And he can tell everyone how he doesn't know me. So, :p to him.

Oh and, in case somebody from HRT stumbles upon this... Uhm... I was just kidding. Of course I'm perfect for the job. Outgoing, communicative, resourceful, stunning, lying through my teeth...

The thing is...

Ever since I got a taste of conventions, I just can't stop flying to the other side of the world to spend 4 days touring the convention hotel attending them. And I really, really, REALLY want to go to LAcon 2011, Rising Con 2011 (IF they get Jensen) and maybe even (fingers crossed) VanCon again.

But.

And what a big but that is.

Contrary to popular belief, I am not made of money. My salary, although quite average in my country, is rather pitiful compared to the US salaries. (I could even envy their usher/ticket takers if I were an envious person. Which I'm not, thank you very much.) And let me tell you this, eventually installment loans stop being the answer. (Apparently, banks want their money back. Did y'all know that?)
So, I have two options. Stop attending cons... Oh boy, just the mere thought of that makes me start hyperventilating. Calm down, Eliann, calm down. Just give me a second here. ... OK, I'm good. Or find a part time job. Or two. Actually, the way Creation Entertainment is upping those prices, better make that three. And a half. You know what they say: Better safe than without two Jensen photo ops.
It's not a perfect solution (I AM after all lazy by nature and procrastinative as hell), but it's not like I have a choice here. (Conoholic with no willpower. Remember?)

Thus, starting tomorrow (as every good procrastinator would), I'm going on a part time job hunt.

Don't worry, my unsuspecting esteemed readers, I WILL be blogging about it. :D

What do you mean, it's not a legitimate addiction?!

It all started 8 years ago with a TV show I didn't even particularly like. Why didn't I like it? I have absolutely no idea. I love shows like that. Should've been one of my favorites. It's a freakin' mystery, that's what it is. *nods* But I digress. Dark Angel. The show was Dark Angel.
That's when I first saw Jensen Ackles. Mind you, back then I only knew his name. It was the BI era. Before Internet. Bloody inconvenient.
It never even crossed my mind that some day I might be close enough to actually have my hands on the guy. In a perfectly respectful way, of course. But only 6 years and one registration to CW lounge later, it all became less impossible. I found out about Creation Entertainment's Salute to Supernatural conventions and said to myself What the heck! I can afford to go to ONE con.
So I bought the tickets for ChiCon. And then I just kept on buying and kept on going. No willpower whatsoever. 4 cons in one year. VanCon 2009, ChiCon 2009, LAcon 2010 and VanCon 2010. And yes, it's just as expensive as it sounds. And I'm still moping every time I remember that I couldn't go to Rising Con. *mopes* See?
Of all the hobbies in the world, I had to choose the priciest one. Yeah, OK, I admit it. It's not really a hobby so much as it is a full-fledged addiction.

Hi. My name is Eliann and I'm a conoholic. Can I get a Hi, Eliann?